Once again struggling with urges to self harm 😐 I’m not even sure what’s brought this on to be honest, but I’ve found myself sat here staring at a blade. A part of me is just urging me to cut, I know I shouldn’t but I just need to 😐 I thought it’s meant to get easier as time goes on, not harder?! 88 hard days to get where I am now….but will I make it to 89? I’m really not sure. 100 days seems so far away and out of reach right now, considering every day seems to be a battle. The thing that scares me is that I feel like I will give in at some point, sooner or later….so why waste the time and not just give in now? Now the right way to think I know….but argh I can’t help it! I feel like such an addict 😦 I can’t even remember what I was thinking of or how these thoughts entered my head. Trying to chat to one of my best mates to keep myself distracted….any distractions will be very welcome….