I don’t know whats wrong with me today, but I seem more in a battle with myself than normal. These highs and lows are doing my head in, and I hate having to pretend to be okay to 95% of the people in my life. There’s very few people who can tell when I’m feeling down, and even those who can, I feel like I need to play down the extend of how I really feel. I know I shouldn’t but I hate troubling people. I feel like I am attention seeking and that the feelings I have I am exaggerating. It’s like a vicious cycle…..it’s hard to go through this on my own but I hate asking to help as well.