This next week or so marks a year since I had a big relapse with regards to my depression. I remember clearly that it all happened at this time last year as I was triggered at a family event, the same family event that I’m desperately trying to get out of going to again this Sunday. I have a feeling I’m not going to be able to avoid it this year. I’m scared about it….very scared. I just hope I can get through it okay.
The thought of the relapse is highly unsettling to be honest. It brings back a lot if bad memories – very dark thoughts and just complete hopelessness to name a few. Even though I do still get these feelings occasionally, it is nowhere near as often or as severe as it was a year ago. I’m so thankful and grateful for the support I’ve had over this last year to get me where I am now. This blog has turned from my release of my dark, troubled and depressed thoughts into, on the whole, a more positive blog (with the occasionally depressed though thrown in depending on my mood lol). I hope in the next year it continues to become more positive and hopefully my relapse will be long gone.